On Dec 31st we all made resolutions: more me time, more patience, more living and (a favorite) to enjoy 2015 to the fullest. But it seems that 2015 is going to be very difficult to tame. As a friend of mine recently posted: she is done with 2015.
For many of us 2015 hasn’t begun well. Back to school and back to Every Day Freaking Math. The amount of life changes in just 7 days seems overwhelming. Friends have received deployment orders (so much for no more boots on the ground). Another special friend has suffered a tremendous loss. Still one more has lost their job.
Even Mother Nature is picking on us. Did I mention it was only 18 degrees this morning?
It is so very hard to maintain the hope with which we ended 2014.
The resolution to stop doing dishes and “ome ere” when Bridget has to ‘show me’ her Sofia Fathead. Every day out of the hospital brings farther from that feeling that this moment matters. To not scream at Abby to brush her freaking teeth. To not feel guilty of sitting on my butt and reading a nonsense book rather than doing laundry.
I do not how to make 2015 better. The year that will be remembered as a daughter’s loss of her mother.
I only know we cannot do it alone.
I am determined to repay the kindness and support we received during Bridget’s most recent hospital adventure. There are eleven months left for 2015 to kick our butt. Instead of focusing on the bruises I am focusing on making my limited reach impact someone in a positive manner.
Here is my goal: from February until December 2015 once a month I will pay it forward to someone who comments below. You won’t when you will receive or what your pay it forward moment will be. It won’t be expensive, that is for sure! But I guarantee it will improve your day. I ask absolutely nothing in return. You do not have to pay it forward to someone else. You do not even have to send a thank you note. This isn’t about that. This is about showing one another that we are not alone. That we are together in this fight to make 2015 better than expected.
I hope you enter my 2015 let’s support one another plan by commenting below (make sure you include your e-mail).