To say February, March and April have been incredible would be like saying …. okay there is not one analogy I could make here that even comes close to the feeling I have in this moment. This is probably close to the expression I am wearing on a full-time basis.
But….(because there is always a but) I am conflicted with feelings of jumping up and down with joy with simultaneous worry that I am bragging or being obnoxious. Add in feelings of oh not worthy, crap when is that other shoe not only going to drop but kick me in the head. I’m a bundle of emotions.
Right now joy and gratitude are winning. By a landslide.
Gratitude that my friends encouraged me to share my blog with the public. Thankful that through this blog I met others who encouraged me to submit pieces for Listen to Your Mother and BlogHer. Joy that my pieces were chosen (along side Wil FREAKING Wheaton, if you didn’t know). Beyond overwhelmed that I will be in NYC for a weekend in July and have already arranged childcare so David can travel with me. We get to be adults in NYC for a weekend.
A sense of wonder and a feeling of holy crap this is happening in my life.
In the past month alone, I have read a piece out loud in front of people, been featured on the local radio station and bought not one but three dresses. THREE dresses as I have no sense of fashion and needed a second opinion on a dress. A dress I will wear on stage not once but twice within a matter of months.
Crap, I need a pedicure and a haircut. And shoes….thankfully I do have friends with fashion sense and will be utilizing their talents. They also reminded me to do something about the hair and toes.
I wonder how this became my life. Worrying about wardrobe of all things. Life with Bridget has been filled with blessings, sure there have been difficult times, but the blessings have always outweighed the dark moments. But this? Being on a stage with real writers ….being on the radio to promote Listen to Your Mother and this blog. I never imagined this three minutes (months?) of “fame” when I began writing just three years ago.
I know time is fleeting and this moment will fade. It will become a memory, one only important to me (as it should be). But right now, I admit to basking in this feeling. Not in the attention (though I’m not knocking it) but in the feeling of accomplishment. This moment where I feel that my words and actions matter and are important not just to me. Important in a small way to anyone who can connect with living with children.
Thank you, to all of you who read this blog and gave me this feeling of wonder. None of this would have happened without your support. And that support? Better than any award Wil FREAKING Wheaton may ever receive.
This is how I finished the sentence, I wonder…..
This week’s cohosts:
Kristi from http://www.findingninee.com/
Me this week’s sentence thinker upper at https://undiagnosedbutokay.com/
Kirstenjill Hudkins Robbins at http://rippedjeansandbifocals.com/